Saturday, January 19, 2008

Is she the one?

I guess the honeymoon phase is over and reality starts to set in. Frusfration and the sense of incompability is starting to take its toll to this relationship. Every relationship expert counsellor can easily tell that communication is key with every relationship, however I cant seem to communicate with her, its really hard to have a serious conversation with her as she doesn't seem to have the maturity to face a serious conversation.

Everytime I try to talk to her on serious matters, she dont talk back, dont even look at me. Its worse than talking to a wall, as its expected that a wall will have no reaction. But she doesn't have any sort of reaction, is she trying to avoid the problems around us?

I really need someone who can communicate and share my problems. She needs to grow up and take on more responsibility. She have to stop relying on her parents so much.

Is she really the one I can count on to share my future with? Is it too soon to think and talk about the future? Why is she has no sense of urgency, drive and ambition to achieve something in live? Is this because she knows that she doesn't have to? and that she have no worries as her parents is there? But her parents wont be around all the time, soon one day they wont be around to protect and help her. Why cant she grow up and at least achieve something in life?

I know I'm not in the position to judge her but I cant stop to think that she'll be the partner of my life, and also the mother of my child. If we were to be living without any support from anybody what so ever, I dont think I can provide her with the comfortable life she is getting right now nor do I believe she can stand living in those conditions with me. If we dont work this out together, I doubt we can have a future together. What can I do??